—Oh, Laura, it’s so good that everything is cleared up.
I looked at her with a bag of rice in my hand.
—Not everything was clarified. It was only proven that I wasn’t lying. What he did remains just as shrouded in mystery.
The lady didn’t know what to say.
Better.
Sometimes other people’s silence can also be learned.
At twenty-eight weeks, one of the babies started to worry the doctor because of his growth. I was put on almost complete bed rest. My mom moved in with me. Diego asked for permission to help.
I said yes, but from the outside.
Shopping.
Medicines.
Payments.
Transfers.
No bed.
No house.
No marriage.
One day she arrived with diapers and a bag of sweet bread. My mom opened it.
“Leave them there,” he told her.
—Can I see her?
—She can see him whenever she wants to see him.
—I am her husband.
My mom let out a dry laugh.
—Son, you unsubscribed yourself.
I listened from the room and smiled for the first time in days.
The babies were born at thirty-six weeks.
A boy and a girl.
Nicholas and Emilia.
Small, wrinkled, furious.
Alive.
When they placed them close to me, I felt all the noise of the world fade away. The accusations. The vasectomy. Paola. The agreement. The stares. It all faded into the distance.
It was just them.
My two tired miracles.
Diego was in the waiting room. I allowed him to come in later, after I had already held them, kissed them, and called their names.
He entered slowly.
As if the room were a church.
Upon seeing them, he covered his mouth.
—Laura…
—Don’t speak loudly.
He nodded.
He approached the crib.
Nicholas barely opened his eyes.
Emilia moved her mouth as if searching for milk.
Diego cried again.
—They are perfect.
I looked at him.
—Yes. And you’ll never use its existence to erase what you did.
He shook his head.
