“Forgive me.”
“I made a mistake.”
“Paola means nothing.”
“I was confused.”
“They are my children.”
My children.
The phrase made me nauseous.
The same babies who the week before were proof of my infidelity were now his because a device in a doctor’s office had restored his pride.
I didn’t answer.
At noon, his mother arrived.
She didn’t have black bags with her this time.
She was bringing flowers.
White roses, like those found in hospitals or at funerals.
I opened the door with the chain on.
“Laura,” she said, in a sweet voice. “My son told me everything. It was a terrible misunderstanding.”
Misunderstanding.
I felt the babies moving, although it was still too early.
Perhaps it wasn’t them.
Perhaps it was my anger.
—You called me a disgrace.
He lowered his gaze.
—I was hurt by Diego.
—I was pregnant.
—We didn’t know.
—They didn’t want to know.
She pressed the flowers to her chest.
—They are my grandchildren.
I stared at her for a long time.
—A few days ago they were a stain on my belly.
He paled.
—Don’t be cruel.
—I’m learning from you.
I closed the door.
I heard her crying outside for a while.
I didn’t open it.
That night I hired the lawyer my mother had recommended. Her name was Irene Robles, a woman in her fifties with a sharp gaze and red fingernails. When she heard my story, she didn’t show any surprise. She just took notes.
Did he sign anything about the vasectomy?
—I have messages. She told me she would get it done because she didn’t want any more children “for now,” but that we would see later.
—Did he go to the follow-up appointment?
-No.
—Do you have proof of the relationship with Paola?
I showed her the photos, posts, old messages where she called me “Lauri” and then the photo of the restaurant.
