Jack looked at the woman who had given him life with a sadness so profound, so devastatingly hollow, it frightened me more than the iron had.
“No, Mom,” he said quietly. “You just protected yourself from the terrifying idea that I could ever love someone more than I blindly obeyed you.”
As the ambulance doors slammed shut, enclosing Jack and me in the sterile quiet of the cabin, a sudden, blinding agony ripped through my lower abdomen. I gasped, my back arching off the stretcher as a hot rush of fluid soaked the sheets.
“Jack,” I screamed, clutching my stomach. “The baby. She’s coming right now.”
Chapter 2: The Fog and the Fire
The maternity observation room at Savannah General smelled aggressively of industrial bleach and lavender hand sanitizer. A web of wires tethered me to a bank of machines, each one vigilantly tracking Lily’s rapid heartbeat. The rhythmic thump-thump-thump filled the sterile space—fast, stubborn, and wonderfully alive.
Jack stood rigidly beside the hospital bed, his large hand completely enveloping mine. He stared at the glowing green line of the fetal monitor with the reverence of a man looking at the face of God. The doctors had managed to halt the premature labor with a cocktail of magnesium sulfate, but the danger still hung over us like a guillotine.
It was only when the nurse finally left us alone that Jack’s impenetrable armor cracked.
He sank into the plastic chair beside the bed, burying his face in his hands. His shoulders shook violently. “I should have been here, Emily. I should have protected you.”
I turned my head, fighting the heavy lethargy of the medication. “Jack, you were serving on a combat deployment.”
“I should have known,” he choked out, looking up at me with bloodshot eyes. “I should have felt it.”
“She systematically made sure you couldn’t,” I whispered.
He shook his head, running a hand through his closely cropped hair. “I received two specific emails from your account three months ago. They sounded so… wrong. Clinical. Cold. Like you desperately didn’t want me distracted. I foolishly thought you were just trying to be a brave Army wife.”
My heart plummeted into my stomach. “Jack, I haven’t had access to my laptop since November. I never sent those.”
Jack closed his eyes. The realization hit him with the kinetic force of a sniper’s bullet.